What I mean by that is; No ultra sounds no Doppler heart test. No unnecessary check ups at the midwife just when I felt the need to get my questions answered and the urge to talk about our little
wonder coming into the world.
Luckily we came across really nice mid wife’s who totally wanted to come along on our journey and were very open to our point of view.
The first thing I decided when I got pregnant was wether I wanted an ultra sound or not. I asked myself what it would tell me. What good it would do for the baby inside my belly and what I would
do with the information if something wasn’t totally right. Of course the feeling of wanting to see what was growing inside of me was there but reading about the negetative sides of an ultra sound
made the decision even easier it most likely wouldn’t do the baby any good. And what would I do with the information if they told us there was a possibility that there was something “wrong”.
I would probably be worried about the baby my whole pregnancy and what good would that do, being inside a mother who is worried the whole time. So there and then I ended the discussion in my
head. No ultra sounds or doppler heart sounds.
I will never forget the moment Ferdinand heard his little heart beat for the first time while lying with his ear on my belly. He sort of lit up and smiled the biggest smile. which in my opinion
was so much better then hearing it through a machine at the midwifes office.
Keeping faith in Mother Nature can be tough these days. So much fear enters your head from all around. I tried to shut that all out and just trust my gut feeling. When I felt Flynn move inside my
tummy and react when I was listening to music,when Ferdinand would be talking to us or playing the piano I could feel that he would react and those reaction got stronger as I got farther along in
Besides that I was feeling really well myself I sometimes even had the feeling I physically felt better during my pregnancy than before. So as long as everything was going well why worry...
Meditating also helped me a lot. During meditation I had the feeling I could get very close to Flynn and feel him very strong. So every night before going to sleep I would take a moment to
connect with him. Now that he is born he still really likes to take this moment before we go to sleep. So I am guessing he could definitely feel my undivided attention while inside my
Why disturb this whole natural process if there are so many signs that everything is going well.
And don’t get me wrong I am totally not against a little help from outside if things do get complicated or unforeseen things happen. But as long as this is not necessary I choose to follow my gut
in every situation.
I don't know whether Flynn being a very happy, easy and relaxed baby is a result of this all. But I am definitely very happy with the choices I made during my pregnancy.
Being self governing is a big part of what I have learned during my pregnancy and labour. I am a person who wants to keep control of everything myself. Not that I am a big control freak but I
hate it when people tell me what to do especially when I am not ready to do them... So during my pregnancy I discussed this with my mid wife and told her I wanted to do as much as possible by
feeling, without her telling me what to do. This ended up working out really well. My body told me exactly what to do and trusting it instead of flying into fear made it a quick and problem free
birth for little Flynn. Once I held him in the warm water in the birthing pool and he looked up at me. I couldn't believe what I saw. Such a perfect tiny boy never could I have expected that it
would feel like this to see him for the very very first time.